When you left me I was totally unprepared. Sure, I knew that you would leave eventually - they always do. But I had no idea it would be so soon, or how much it would hurt. Unbearable pain...but somehow I got through it.
Sure, there were signs, but I couldn't believe it was really happening to me. There'd be some pain, and I'd deal with it and move on, then out of nowhere I'd be overcome again. And the more time that passed, the worse the pain got. It seemed like I'd barely catch my breath and there you be again, clamoring for my attention.
And then to think that I turned around and did it again. With the same agonizing result! Who would ever believe someone would let themself in for that kind of thing twice?
And all the tears I've cried over you the two of you! You'll never know how many.
But, come to think of it, the tears were mostly joyful. And the joy SO outweighs the pain. In fact, the pain was wiped out the moment I first held you in my arms, my darling daughters!
Those were the most painful hours of my life...but with the most unbelieveably beautiful results.
And all the years since then have only proceeded to get better.
Love,
Mom
YOU ARE SO CLEVER, making me think at first you were talking to a man. :)
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